Whats the best thing to do?

For awhile now my little Daisie has taken a very sudden and random hate to going to nursery, It's not an everyday thing some days she will happily rush in without a second thought of saying bye or giving me a kiss.

I'm one of those mums that will go into the classroom give cuddles and kisses then leave but some days it's not as simple as that Daisie will start by asking will I watch her write her name like today but then she really panics I'm not there and will constantly check that I am, then she wants me to stay while she has some toast and will do the same constant checks she done while she wrote her name.

THEN

She's stuck to me as if she was born with suckers there's no getting her off and shes set on coming back home with me, pleading with me to take her home with tears welling in her eyes all her friends flock round her trying to get her to come and play.

My protecting mummy instinct is to scoop her up and do just that as no one likes having to stay somewhere they really don't want to be right?

BUT

am I helping her in anyway by taking her home every time she kicks up a fuss? considering she will go in fine with daddy without a care in the world. 

So it seems she knows exactly how to pull on mummy's heart strings and knows I'm a super softy!

Today I didn't scoop her up and bring her back home but left her kicking her screaming with 2 teachers trying their hardest to settle her I could hear her screaming 'mummy' and it totally killed me, I left the school grounds balling my own eyes out looking a right pillock but that's my baby screaming for me and I have the power to take her away from a situation she clearly isn't happy to be in but I just walked away.
que the guilt, feeling like an awful mother and any other kind of emotion linked or unlinked to the situation that seems to creep its way in,

Once she's settled she's totally fine and is back to how she is on a good day but my mind isn't settled and I can't carry on with my day without that over protective mother call to the nursery to check she has settled okay.

I know it's probably without a doubt better to leave her behind and let her settle but I'm so not used to my baby getting herself into such a state and want to do whatever it takes to take her out of that situation.
It's been decided I do the kisses and cuddles at the door and let her skip in on her own it feels me with dread but if it takes her back to enjoying her days at nursery I'm willing to give it ago.
 I've questioned why she doesn't want to go she's mentioned being bit (which I followed up with the teachers) she also hides away and seems scared of a little boy that also attends again which I followed up with her teacher today but she apparently sits with this little boy out of choice through out the day.
Is it as frowned upon to take my clearly very unsettled little girl home with me as much as I think it is? Am I just being a total softy?

So what in your opinion is the best thing to do?

Leave them to settle and enjoy the rest of their day or scoop them up and take them home?

GLOSSYBOX | March

I know, I know my blog's becoming a bit of  beauty box central lately I promise I'll find a nice level between box posts.

This is my second Glossybox and I'm fairly impressed but I do feel my box wasn't shown the kind of TLC my last box was, my last box all my items arrived nice and neatly snug into the shredded paper but this months there was a bundle of shredded paper in one corner and my items where just rattling around it, The little sticker that holds them all secure in the tissue paper wasn't stuck over enough to actually seal it shut.  Maybe I'm just being fussy but I didn't feel the loving packaged feel like I did when I peaked into last months box.

In the box

NAOBAY Moisturizing Peeling - £13.71 for 1OOml

With buzzwords such as "luminous" and "minimal" bandied about by make-up artists backstage at the shows, the spotlight is on skin this spring. Thankfully, this organic peeling milk from Spanish eco-brand Naobay is like a start over for skin, with particles from the acai tree to remove dulling dead skin cells and brighten the complexion.

shop at: www.comparcosmetica.es

This product left me totally confused no clue of what it was or how to use it, because I'm one of those that doesn't read the little card that comes in the box but dives straight into the items inside. It's actually a peeling milk which is pretty intriguing I've only ever really heard of peeling masks.

Essence Lash Princess Volume Mascara - £3.3O for 12ml 

Every girl's make-up mush have. Mascara takes you from weary to wide-eyed in one sweep. This mascara has a clever cobra head shaped wand, which grabs each individual lash to create length and dramatic volume, for inky black eyes as seen this season.

shop at: www.essence.eu/uk/home

If the packaging wasn't as cute as it is I'd have been a little disappointed that I got another mascara as I got one in my last box too. 

Dove Advanced Hair Series Youthful Vitality Shampoo & Conditioner £5.99 for 25Oml

As we age or grow our hair longer, it becomes weaker and prone to breakage. This hydrating duo repairs brittle tresses and works to replenish lost nutrients, so hair is left stronger, sleeker and looking twice as thick - perfect for our latest obsession with loose braids 

Shop at: www.tesco.com & www.boots.com

I've got to be honest I'm a little disappointed to get these again as I got them in my YOUBEAUTY box but I suppose that's what I get for being greedy and being signed up to two boxes.

ncLA Nail Lacquer £13 for 15ml

Free of toxins, cult brand ncLA's bestselling shade is the perfect quick-dry neon pastel, For us, it represents everything spring - colour, sun starting to peek through clouds and maybe even the chance of a holiday on the horizon.

shop at: www.shopncla.co.uk 

Sleek MakeUP Pout Paint £.499 for 8ml
Ever wanted to make your own lipstick shade? Well now is your chance!
Designed to be applied softly for a light stain or liberally for jaw dropping colour, Pout paint lets you wear it how you want. You can even mix it with another lip colour to create the ulitmate bespoke shade.
shop at: www.sleekmakeup.com

Silent Sunday #3

Mummy & Me #1

After reading about Nicola's from over at nicolalifethroughmyeyes new linky Mummy and me I just had to link up. 

With both my babies in school/nursery soon both to be full time school *sobs* it's rare that both of them will be in a photo with me one that I'm happy to share online anyway, Daisie likes to spend a lot of her time in just her pants even when she is dressed she tends to strip off like in the above pictures but luckily her mop of hair has hidden any mojor bits so I was happy to share those ones.

I hope to be able to get alot more photos of us together this year and not just the selfie kind, Daddy's going to have to pull out his photography and capture those perfectly natural shots.

Spring/Summer Bucket List '15

With the Easter holidays nearing my minds going crazy with ideas of what we can get up to during the girls week off and then its the BIG one!

The summer holidays

- Go swimming

- Go to a farm shop

- Visit a farm 

-  Go for a picnic

- Feed the ducks

- Go on the boats

- Go to the sea life centre

- Visit M&M world

- Make play-doh

- Go on a bug hunt

- Feather hunting  

-Visit eagle heights

- Go to the natural history museum

- Have an Easter egg hunt

PINK PARCEL - It's a monthly thing

You may have seen this little box many times in the blogsphere but here it is again.

I don't even have the 'monthly thing' but I just had to get in on this amazing little box even more so when I found out your first box only costs £5.95 (then £9.99 a month)

How amazing is that! 

 So down to the box, most of us girls dread that time of the month but this little box just makes it that so much better. Not only does it come jam packed with whatever it is you may use tampons, sanitary towels etc (you get to chose what brand/style)

There's also a little box of pick me ups too! Like I said AMAZING

Pink parcel also do another box especially for teenagers called 'teenparcel' something I'm so signing up to for each of the girls when they have their monthlys if the company is still going which I really hope so.

In my box

2 boxes and a little draw string bag of tampax

 Perfectil skin, hair & nails tablets sample

Tube of bubble T bath bombs

Tea pigs chocolate flake tea bag

PAW PAW moisturising balm

Divine caramel dark chocolate 

4 Bandzee's

O.P.I creme gloss nail varnish

As if all of this wasn't good enough I also got a 2O% OFF code for flamingo candles a company I've been dying to purchase from ever since I found them and a £25 gift card for Gousto!
You can sign up to receive your box every month at www.pinkparcel.co.uk

I'm sure you'll be with me on saying what a genius idea!

Silent Sunday #2

Andy......

A note you may never see but one day you may stumble across my blog and have a peek for more than a proof read of a post I'm yet to publish but want to be sure and have your opinion on it first.

I know over the years I've become increasingly harder to live with and most days you really don't know whether your coming or going and forever treading on eggshells as you can never be to sure to know what kind of mood I'm in that day and what may set me off, I'm always holding things in and only letting you in on my thoughts when I've reached boiling point and all the trivial things become the biggest problem yet once I've finally let you in I look back at them and think REALLY? something I promise never to do again every time it happens yet I continue to do so.

When I turn into a heap of sobbing mess because I'm an awful mum, I'm sick of my sh*thole of a house your there to hold me and remind me of everything I'm getting right and that I do the best I can, 

Each and every day you remind me how much you love me, that you think I'm gorgeous even with a face that could easily be the new face of dominos pepperoni passion pizzas, every little bit of me that I point out and hate you seem to love the most.

You often pull me to a halt in whatever it is I'm doing just to let me know how much you love me, the movie kind where you make me look deep into your eyes just to know I'm taking it in and not just shrugging it off, I admire every little thing you do, the thought of our girls thinking you can 'fix' anything just like I used to my dad when I asked him to fix my leg like he did everything else (a story he often tells me) turns me to total mush.

Because I really don't tell you often enough I just want to remind you that I love you just as much today as I did the day we became us if not much much more, I love the little things that make you, you the way you pout your lips when you concentrate, as much as it drives me mad but the way you have ketchup on EVERYTHING, the way you throw yourself and put your all into any kind of project you take on, how you seem to claim any corner we have in the living room unless I got it first, the way your the only person I know that can leave socks in two totally different places or maybe its a different pair but I've come across them separately, how when I eventually give in and gather up the mugs you've had tea in at your desk at least half of them have the half way bit from your rizzla packet rolled into a ball in them or the empty rizzla packet, as difficult as it makes spag bol making you will only have the tomato and garlic sauce and know if I've tried a different sauce and not told you, how I got sky for the girls but the planner is full of all your programmes, how you'll try your hand at anything and usually end up pretty awesome at whatever it is, how you won't kiss me when you come back in from a cigarette because I don't smoke, how you sneak out of the bedroom and leave me to sleep until I wake up over the weekends, how your full of so many random facts, how you will talk to me about your bike even though you know I have no idea what the hell half of it means, I love how you always make sure I have enough cherry coke to last me the rest of the day/night if not you'll take a walk to the local garage to go and get me another bottle, how you can find the funny side to absolutely anything.
God I really can go on can't I?
I just know you'll be doing that chuckle that I just adore reading that last line if you have found yourself reading this.

I love you!

Coffe shop observations

Sitting waiting for a friend, I found myself people watching in the not so secluded corner of the coffee shop, with 3O minutes still to wait I thought I'd download the blogger app and write up this post...

I observed how the ladies that lunch aside of me refused to share their table with the elderly man looking for a seat, so much so the 2nd lady waiting in the que felt the need to leave the que to let the sweet little man know she was going to be sitting there (please note this was a table for 4) so with that I ushered him into the seat on my table the table of 4 I grabbed quickly as it was the only one available. I looked around to the twins being gently soothed, the ladies nattering away while they sipped their hot chocolates, the clattering of the cups, the harsh sound of built up steam finally letting go.
A smaller table became free so I made a run for it hoping that the sweet man I shared my table with hasn't taken offence to my swift exit, with many conversations surrounding me I'm gutted that the loudest was by 2 guys one asking the other if its bad that all he can think about is fingering that bird GROSS.. the kind of conversation you expect from a teen but no it left the mouth of a middle aged work man who could easily have a daughter not much younger than myself!
I sit here glad that my stomach feels as hollow and empty as it does or I may have thrown up in my mouth a little.
I've been sat here for over 30 minutes and I'm still torn between a hot chocolate I don't actually like as its chilly outside or a cooler that I love but will leave me with really cold hands.

If you didn't guess by the picture of a hot chocolate accompanying this post I went for the hot chocolate and today's one confirmed it I really don't like hot chocolate.

YOU BEAUTY | LIMITED EDITION

You may have noticed in my previous post about YOU BEAUTY that I wasn't sure if I was going to go ahead with my subscription boy am I glad I forgot to cancel said subscription.

It didn't even cross my mind until I got an email with a receipt for my payment for this months box, So with that I headed over to the website to see this months picks and was totally spoilt for choice and amazed to find 2 brands that I've been dying to get my hands on so of course as tough of a choice it was I just had to go for those ones.

In my box

Dove youthful vitality shampoo and conditioner

NAKD coco orange bar
 The Vintage Cosmetic Company Eyelash curler
Illamasqua lipstick in SANGERS matt finish - blood red

For £6.95 I'm VERY impressed with this months box and I think I may just be keeping up my subscription after all.
 

HAUL | MEGA Mumma Haul

You may remember one of new years resolutions was to treat myself more, I may have failed that mission on the day I set out to start it but over the past few weeks I  managed to gather up quite a collection of bits on my travels, most of it may be sale items but even before the sale section for me got totally over looked. 

With most of my clothes no longer fitting me and donating/selling over half of my wardrobe it was only right I refilled it with the stuff I'd be lusting over for so long right?

So I did just that and god it feels good to look at them in my wardrobe rather than on the website.

 NEW LOOK

Tartan trousers £8 down from £17.99

Bobble hat £2 down from

Belt £1 down from £3.99
Monochrome Tile print leggings £8 down from £17.99

PRIMARK

Gold watch £5

Necklace £2

Face mask 9Op
Hnadbag £1O

H&M

Necklace £3 down from £6.99

Face mask 99p each
Necklace £3 down from £5.99
Over sized polo neck jumper £5 down from £24.99
Grey jumper £5 down from
Grey marl cardigan £7.99
Make-up brush cleaner £2.99

 ASDA

Longline blazer £8 down from £18

White lace shouldered blouse £8 down from £14

Oversized floral blouse £8 down from £14

Floral top £2.5O

 White shirt £2

Black jeans £3

H&M WANTS | Girls Wardrobe

everything pictured can be found over on the H&M website 

With the sun very slowly showing its face it will soon be time to pack away the winter woolies, so it's time for a wardrobe update and I just LOVE H&M clothes for the girls.

Everything's such great prices with even better quality for the price you wouldn't really hold out much hope but the girls dresses (£2.99) a regular buy and an item I always run for when they come to stores have always lasts them for what seems forever Issy can wear hers literally all summer and we can easily hand it down to Daisie and other than H&M bringing in new prints you can hardly tell its at least a year old and a hand me down.

4O Facts about me

1- I have 4 older brothers 

2- I became a mum when I was 16 

3- I can't grow my nails long naturally it makes me feel sick

4- I never had plans of having children or getting married 

5- I wear varifocals

6- I have a gold tooth and kind of regret going for a gold one

7- If I kept all of my piercings in I'd have well into the 3O's

8- A lot of my tattoos I got because I wanted them not many of them have a meaning

9- I drink a litre of cherry coke a day something I really want to stop

1O- I've had my hair every colour of the rainbow all at one time

11- I've never left the country

12- There's a 1O year age gap between me and the youngest brother of the 4 

13- I actually have a brother called JR, Our surname is Ewing

14- I moved out when I was 16

15- I'd love to be a contortionist

16- I can get really irritable very quickly 

17- I'm a hoarder, I find a meaning behind anything

18- I fancy the pants off Helena Bonham Carter

19- My middle name is Robina

2O- It weirds me out when people call me Linda

21- Some people know me as Sally

22- I spend way to much of my time on social media and it needs to stop

23- I was a spoilt b*tch growing up

24- My cousin and brother run me over with a motorbike when I was around 4 years old

25- I'm very ditsy 

26- Having wet hands really bothers me 

27- I really want my tongue split

28- My favourtie colour is green 

29- I have no GCSE's

3O- I'm certified in above the waist body piercing

31- I have my head and face tattooed

32- I'm a hermit
33- I over use emojis without them I feel like I might offend someone, Then I look back and realize how ridiculous I look
34- I'm an aunty to 1O soon to be 11 and a great aunty to 6
35-  I spend my weekends in my PJ's unless I plan to go out
36- I walked on my broken leg for a week and did handstands on my broken wrist without knowing they were broken
37- I still have the cast from my broken leg and wrist (Yep as I said serious hoarder)
38-I hated mushrooms and fried egg until I was pregnant with Daisie now a fry up isn't a fry up without them.
39-I'm agoraphobic
4O-Moths terrify me they seem dusty and beady eyed ahhhh....
(imagine that in one of Chandler Bing style)

A few signs my Issy is growing up

Recently Issy has been laying down a few rules, rules that make it very obvious that she is growing up...

Until her teacher said someone has to drop her right to the door she requested that we stay at the school gates and go no further when dropping her off to school, even when she asked if we could leave almost 3O minutes before the doors even opened so she could see her friends for a little while before starting the school day. Something I'd never even consider but I was feeling brave hardly any of her friends were there we were THAT early scooting away while I admired her she turned and simply said 'You said you'd wait at the gate now'

As I do every night I tucked my babies into bed and gave them a good night kiss.... To which Issy came out with I don't like kisses anymore mum *que the heart thud* So I suggested I kiss her on the cheek from now on? No I don't like those either.

When taking her sister into nursery we have to walk through the play ground Issy is playing in to get to the nursery Issy used to without a doubt come running over to me with open arms and a great big kiss, now I'm lucky if I get a cuddle or a kiss goodbye after she's ran along side us to the nursery gate.

She was in the winning house last week and came home with a certificate and a pen she chose for being in the winning house, Along with the certificate was a little note 'I love charlie' on noticing this I teased her and she replied 'I'm going to dump him soon because he makes fart noises and follows me everywhere (Nuah girlfriend style)

Turns out she hasn't dumped Charlie but now has a ring that she's going to be marrying him with.

We've had requests of sectioning off the girls bedroom so she has her own private space that Daisie can't get into without her say so or help, she'd also like some drawers for her white socks and underwear, a lamp NOT a light and an alarm clock.

There's no fooling her anymore she knows that's just a woman dressed as Elsa with a wig on not the actual Elsa, silly!

Bargain of the week - Andrew Barton Heat Protection Spray

Who doesn't love a bargain?

So when I was tottering round asda and found myself down the hair care isle and spotted this Andrew Barton heat protection spray for blonde hair down to 5Op from £3.5O it would have been rude not to buy it.

I don't usually use any kind of heat protection on my hair (I know my poor hair) so I was excited to give it ago, I rarely straighten my hair now days but I do blow dry it.

Now that I have this it's likely I may just start straightening my hair again you know for blog purposes to put this spray to the test! 

 

Silent Sunday #1

Poundlands Hidden Treasures

If your a regular reader of my blog you'll know its no secret that I'm a pound shop mega fan!
Since having one open up local to me it's become a daily routine to just 'pop' in and see whats new with no intentions of buying anything just like today when I ended up leaving with £16 worth of stuff.
oops...
There's just so many hidden gems in there if I ever have anything on my wish list I make sure to check out the poundland shelves first.
I've wanted a heart shaped bowl for what seems forever I often go into wilkos look at them, pick them up then put them back and leave so when I saw them in poundland it was only right that I picked myself up two and more than likely return to get some more in the week.
I've become obsessed with glass jars lately and saw the one pictured but didn't pick it up stupidly as I couldn't think of what the hell I would use it for then as soon as my feet stepped on my living room floor I thought of the perfect use and HAD to go and get one but there was none left until a few visits later I saw a stranded one right by the tills so of course it came home with me and now sits proudly holding all my cotton pads, plastic make-up storage is everywhere another thing I've been dying to get my mits on so once again as soon as I saw it I literally slam dunked it into my basket I also have a flower kind of shaped lipstick/lip pencil holder that I bought ages ago but can I find it anywhere to include in this post? Of course not...
Candles... whenever I find scented candles I turn into a candle pervert sniffing every different scent available the jarred love heart candle was no exception it smells exactly like the pink refresher chew bar delicious.
I don't think I really need to go into why I grabbed the Rimmel lip crayon do I?
who can say no to one of those for £1?

I saw these when I planned to write this post but thought buying them for blog purposes when I really would have no use at all for them would be pointless BUT now I have an excuse baby niece/nephew number 11 is on the way!

H&M Make-up brush cleansing spray

With my last H&M online order I spotted their make-up brush cleansing spray for £2.99, now that I have a decent set of brushes I thought it was time they had the TLC they deserve.
I did plan on buying some baby shampoo as I've seen people recommend it all over the place but I just loved the simplicity of the packaging of this cleansing spray, it will also fit in perfectly with my new bedroom decor plans.
I know it's probably self explanatory but I'm pretty gutted it doesn't have any kind of instructions on how to use it, I always like the reassurance of guidelines so I can be sure I'm using something correctly.
 
OMG the smell!
It just screams soft and gentle I can't even describe what it smells like it smells so nice BUT I have noticed at first it smells like pure alcohol the kind on the alcohol wipes I use before piercing someone which I can't say I'm keen on using on my face but once they had dried the lovely fresh smell returned. I couldn't help but keep sniffing my brushes.
To clean my brushes I sprayed a little onto the tips and then rubbed them against some kitchen roll (which I think I'll upgrade to a flannel just for my make-up brushes) they fairly quickly returned to their brand new looking state with the end bristles going back to white and they still felt as soft as ever.

Is it sad to be excited to wash your make-up brushes again?

Groombridge Gardens - My childhood safe haven

We all have that favourite childhood place don't we? The place we went to often as a child and the place we'd love to make a regular haunt for our own little families.

My favourite childhood place was Groombridge place gardens 4 miles south west of tunbridge wells, This place was my very own wonderland I remember spending many of my summer holidays visiting the giant chest board, letting the koi carp suck on my finger tips, following many peacocks round the garden grounds, knocking on the numbered paving stones lent up against trees waiting for fairies to come out if you knocked at the right time of day, visitng the gypsies in their caravans and the indians in their teepees, swinging on the overly huge swings hanging from trees which fit me and my mum on with our matching hats, getting on the barge to get to the other end of the gardens just talking about it makes me all fuzzy inside.

I loved this place so much I longed to get married there it was the only place fitting for my big day and one of my most meaningful tattoos has a lone peacock feather situated in it to resemble my days there going home with any stray peacock feathers I came across running around the grounds there, It's needless to say I couldn't wait to take my own little family there bubbling with excitement at the magic they will feel that I once felt as their little feet run around the play paths, seeing the zeedonk if he was around in a place you'd be able to catch a glimpse of him.

The time finally came 3 years ago to take my girls to the place that was the most magical place I've been, My friends very kindly took us along as I was dying to get more information on  holding my wedding there. 

 With all my childhood memories flooding back I was so excited I'm sure I actually skipped my way from the car to the entrance after paying for us all to get in, I was raring to get stuck into all the old things I once done as a little girl but it was like getting kicked in the stomach it was no longer all what I promised my friends and girls it would be. 

Wicker dragons were left without heads,the gypsie caravans barely had any windows left and what it seems to be just left to rot, the once mystic blue pool was nothing but a slushy mud puddle, the many beautiful peacocks could barely be found (we did find one but Issy was terrified)

That being said I'm really hoping it was to do with the time of year we went as it was pretty cold, The little girl in me is wishing and hoping with all her might that it was just down to the time of year and that all those things get patched up come the warmer weather. 

I can't wait to pass my driving test so I can make regular visits there willing for the magic to return and witness my girls feel the magic I once felt.

I can't get married in the actual part I wish to get married in so it's my mission to travel up on the morning of my wedding to re create the many photos of me as a little girl with both my mum and dad in them with me in my wedding dress, possibly my girls too.